I love this song, it means a lot

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gVxRvNfFLg

You are to me...remember

A few of my favorite things said...

Some of my favorites...


Bad times have a scientific value. These are occasions a good learner would not miss.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Every man has his own courage, and is betrayed because he seeks in himself the courage of other persons.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Maybe you don't like your job, maybe you didn't get enough sleep, well nobody likes their job, nobody got enough sleep. Maybe you just had the worst day of your life, but you know, there's no escape, there's no excuse, so just suck up and be nice.
Ani Difranco

The wise man does not expose himself needlessly to danger, since there are few things for which he cares sufficiently; but he is willing, in great crises, to give even his life knowing that under certain conditions it is not worthwhile to live.
Aristotle

We all want progress, but if you're on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road; in that case, the man who turns back soonest is the most progressive.
C.S. Lewis

Life is tough, but it's tougher when you're stupid.
John Wayne

I'd call him a sadistic, hippophilic necrophile, but that would be beating a dead horse!
Woody Allen

Untouchable Face 1996
i'm going for a walk now, i feel a little unsteady, don't want nobody to follow me...'cept maybe you... i could make you happy, y' know, if you weren't already...
i could do a lot of things... and i do tell you the truth... i prefer the worst of you, too bad you had to have a better half...she's not really my type...but i think you two are forever,and i hate to say it but you're perfect together.......so fuck you! and your untouchable face and fuck you for existing in the first place...who am i? that i should be vying for your touch... who am i?
Ani Difranco

I LOVE YOU MJ

No matter what happens I will always love you...

We were friends first

Lovers second

You are still the best and I still want you,

I promised

I always will be there

Take care,

Trust that I am

You are a great woman, mother and a friend

Be at peace

Be calm

Know that I will always love you no matter what

To my friend, my lover, my wife

Goodnight

I bid you adeau...for now


Love Ryan

Yesterday I finished training at the Utah Police Academy to be an impact weapons instructor. I am beat to shit! This is one of many certifications that are required to continue teaching at POST. I have been through defensive tactics instructor course 3 times, PPCT, PPCT baton, spontaneous knife defense, Tazer, Intoxilyzer, Instructor development, SWAT training, and now impact weapon instructor. I recieved a black belt from Korean martial arts Master Don Jin Kim in defensive tactics/arrest control and there are many more trainings and certifications but I don't recall them, its been almost eight years.

I didn’t realize that I had so many certifications until I was talking to my wife last night and she reminded me that I have more certifications than anyone she knows. I am not trying to brag at all. I am overwhelmed to tell the truth. All these different arrest control techniques and pain compliance techniques are starting to get jumbled together. Each time I teach I have to refresh my memory on the system that I am presenting.

During in service training it is not such a big deal, I can teach whatever kind of wazoo who flung poo stuff I want as long as I have a lesson plan and the sheriff approves of it. But when it comes to the pre-service academy, there is no ad lib. You teach to the test and it is very structured and very militaristic. I think teaching rocks and I have earned my stripes when it comes to being an instructor. I have torn my meniscus; have cartilage damage in both knees, permanent bruises on both elbows from ground fighting and force cell entries. All for the SO!!! Gotta love it…

It’s well worth the effort and very rewarding. The way I look at it the better I make these officers at defensive tactics, the more of an asset they will be and the safer we all are on the job and in public.

Because I always go home no matter what, and so will they... NO MATTER WHAT.

Valentines Day was a fun day! Check out the 6 foot snow heart I made for MJ. It took me three hours and all the snow in the yard to make. I used red food coloring to tint the white snow some sort of red color…Pretty cool! Since we are new to the neighborhood I was getting some weird looks from passers by. I bet they were saying, I know that guy is a cop but why is he shoveling his grass and making that huge pile of snow like a tweeker???? Anyways it was well worth the effort, she is always worth it….

To my beautiful wife...

You are my sun my moon
my everything
There is no one else I would rather be with
Grow old with me
Let me care for you
Always and forever yours
To never alone chance fate.....
I love you

Ryan

Really drunk right now, its all good. Hard to type though!!!! Peace to all and please stay out of jail...

If you get a chance watch Rob and Big. The Turd in the pool, its hilarious!!

Still Alive

I haven't posted an entry in a long time. I just wanted to let anyone know who was wondering, I AM STILL ALIVE.

Haven't had much to say that I would want anyone to read so I will let the pictures speak for me.